The past week has been just plain relaxing. I haven't been doing anything, except going through the hypnobirthing relaxation exercises, reading magazines and taking long slow swims in the afternoon.
It was actually a decision made over the weekend that I just can't do everything. Last week, I was down with a very bad flu, took a round of antibiotics and went in to the shop over the weekend and on Monday and Tuesday. Then beginning of this week, fell ill again. My cough ( which is improving now) is so bad it kept me up 3 whole nights. It's the type where the itch is so bad you feel like you have to cough it out. I coughed till I thought there would be blood and my throat felt like someone had burned it. Mark remarked that my coughs were so violent he fancied little Angeline must be traumatised in my tummy with all that heaving and loud loud coughing sounds. Haha.
So, he actually ORDERED me to just rest! After all, my birth is just 2 weeks away or anytime now. I don't want to go into labour feeling sick and with this nasty cough. I totally agree. The violent nature of the coughs can probably push the baby out. I actually think it did pushed the baby lower as after last week, the baby has apparently got itself into position for birth, head at the neck of my pelvis opening. But my C-section scar actually hurt a bit too after all the coughing so that one not so good. I just better get myself well.
So, despite feeling like there are a thousand and one things to do before I go give birth, I've decided to just take things easy. And I think it's been a blessing. I was initially reluctant to leave the new part time staff I hired alone in the shop but she has turned out well, working better when I am not around even. Ha. Mark, the dear husband , has also started doing weekend shifts in the shop when it gets really busy so I can rest easy at home.
Guilty? Still feel like I should be doing more. But then health and baby come first. I will probably with grappling with conflictng emotions once the baby is born - fighting the need to rest and get back to work as quickly as possible. Hiyah, why do we stress ourselves out ah?
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for u, the biz is like your baby too, so it's natural u dont want to neglect it, esp since its been doing well. hope ur better. u need to be fit for natural pain-free birth!
Rachel: Yah, I'll go check out that blog.
Sher: Yah man, I need all the energy for that birth. Haah. The coughing now keeps interupting my relaxation because I can't breathe deeply. When I do, my throat gets itchy. Hahaah. Hilarious lah. Btw, I've been getting these lower abdominal cramps past two days.. perhaps the day is drawing near...
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